Love the inner child in all of us

Saturday I had the privilege to attend the Coca Cola Adelante Tour. And all I can say is WOW!! My friend invited me and I am so grateful she did. I was in  Forum for Latina women and I got to meet some amazing women. I would like to say Thank You! to Coca Cola, Sandra Cisneros, Michele Ruiz, Isasara Bay, Nell Merlino, Nely Galan , and all the women who were present at the Coca-Cola Adelante Forum. It is really hard to be a Latina with a dream and not have mentors or other women similar to yourself to look up to. But yesterday I finally felt like I belong, I was so happy to be surrounded by all my sisters who had similar dreams and aspirations. And I finally was able to embrace what makes me an outcast in my own community. In the words of Sandra Cisneros, I am embracing being a Chingona and I am proud to be one. And Thanks to Michelle Ruiz I was finally able to "Let it Go to Grow", I had such an Amazing time and learn so much that I am so eager to share with the rest of the world.


My most favorite part of the event was when they asked us pull our baby picture out, We had been asked to take a picture of us when we were small, I chose one of myself when I was about 4-5 years old. I was in El Salvador wearing a soft light blue dress and my hair was long with a bow on the side. So when we all took out our pictures, we were asked to take a good look at that Little girl in the picture, and I am being honest when I say this, when I looked at myself in the picture my heart broke. I felt so much sadness and pain and I was embarrassed because I had big drops falling out of my eyes. But I looked around and I wasn't the only one. I realized that we shared one more thing in common , PAIN we were all touched by the sight of the little girls that stared back at us. We were then told to look at that little girl and promise her to be the best mother we could be to her. There was no one with a dry eye in that room. I realized there and then that most of us Latinas have been raised by mothers who were never mothered and loved. Their unresolved issues and pain were passed down from generation to generations and as a consequence we are left with so many issues that need to be resolved. I finally understood why I was crying, I felt all the emotions rush me and I realized that I always wanted to feel a mothers love. I always longed for affection, for  my parents to see me and love me for who I am . The words were spoken and we had to repeat them to our selves, I realized that I was still that little 5 year old wanting to be accepted and loved. So I promised to do just that I WILL LOVE MYSELF and be the best mom I can be to my 5 year old self. She is still living in me and unless I love her and acknowledge her pain, she won't be able to blossom into a successful woman.
I learned so much and  I will share it with everyone I know. I will start with my nephew and niece. 


xoxoxo Liz

Sundays Blessings! on a Thursday =D

 

OMG!!! something was wrong with my computer, I thought I had posted or at least saved my entry but it didn't. So I Have to start all over.

This is what happened this past weekend I had a AHA moment.. you I know when we all are going thru life and we think we are giving it all we have .. and then BAM!! someone who truly loves you has the audacity and guts to tell you that you are doing things Half A$$.. and you cant believe you just heard that. Well I had that happen to me on Saturday and to be Honest I needed that Reality check. I tend to be some what of a Drama Queen and I get excited about many things , but I was told and I realized that I ha vent been putting my 100% into my life lately. I must confess I was devastated when I heard those words and of Course I am a big Chillona.( No wonder my boyfriend uses that as one of my Pet names) . Yes My big Brown eyes were sobbing and the biggest tear drops were flowing out of them.. for a minute I tried to dismiss it as not being real and tried to lie to  myself that it was not true.  But come Sunday morning as I arrive at church and I am ready to go and tell JC how JZ had been so blunt and called me out.. out of my Pastors Mouth comes.. " GOD WANTS YOU TO GIVE IT YOUR ALL, IN ALL YOU DO... HE REQUIRES 100% NOT 25% AND YOU GUESSED IT .. Not 50%. And Lately YOU haven't been doing that .. You ask God for his all and maybe other people in your life for their all , But you aren't giving you100%. OMG!! what was I to do, but to get rid of my Pride and accept that reality.. That in Fact I have been a slacker that I have wasted 2 years of my life contemplating what to do instead of doing it, and If I am in a place in my life where I am not happy, I am the only one to Blame, its not God and it's not those around you that keep you do, It is YOURSELF.

Man that was tough and it felt like a slap in the Face times 2. But I accepted that my Boyfriend was correct when he stated that I am not working to my potential and I had no other choice than to specially when God himself  thru his vessel my Pastor confirmed it. So I asked God for forgiveness for being such a useless individual and I vowed to make a change. I am on day 4 and I am getting my things in order. I have plans and dreams and I have given myself a year (long term) to transform my life around. Short term I am already working on it and I promised myself to invest more time on me and not be so complacent.

So I felt the need to share this with all of you who may read this.. Don't ask God to change your life unless you are willing to change it first.  Also don't wait for God to send you an answer and to do something for you, unless you are willing to Jump and put your trust in him. And most importantly don't expect your life to change unless you take the First step and move to make it change. Remember Faith is believing in something that you can't see.  Its time we all put our faith into action and once you do that we will see The Power of GOD manifest in our  life.

Thank You GOD for one more Birthday !!

PS..I found tis cute bear on line he is not mine, I just love him

Hello every one Yeah!! today is My B-day and I am unfortunately at work with a Flu and with some major pain on my neck/ back and shoulders, but I am grateful that I have one more day in this life that God has been so kind enough to lend me. Last night I did my Thank You prayer and I asked the Lord for guidance. I am also Happy to say that I know what I will study next, I am not going to say what my decision is, I will wait for a better time to share with all of you, But As a b-day gift I asked Jesus to help me achieve my Purpose and my Dreams. And to use me to help others achieve theirs.

 I called my Twin and I wished her a Happy birthday she is also sick with the Flu I think I gave it to her ( by the way in case you did not read my previous entry my twin is my now 6 year old Niece, we are born on the same day " so in her 5 year old brain .. that means we are twins.. =D.

I have been blessed with many Happy Birthdays and I am so Thankful for the loved ones in my life that remembered.. I don't know what My boyfriend has in stored, I did say I wanted to go to Disneyland.. but I am not feeling good so I don't think I have the energy to do that. And as far as my Wish list.. this is the first year that I didn't have a list of stuff.. I was more concerned with God guiding me into my right path that I kinda focused my energy into asking the Lord for that type of blessing.
 =(... maybe that means I am growing up and maturing.

At work my Friends decorated my area with happy birthdays decorations and we cut a huge chocolate Cake . Yum Yum.. and then we hit Shakeys for a not so healthy but oh so good Lunch =D.

Anyways I hope you are all in good health and I pray that God blesses all my loved ones. my nephews and my Family and me with Love, Health Prosperity and Happiness. For my wish I wish blessings for all of us who need them and may God give us many many more years to grow in his presence.

xoxoxo and Thank You
Liz

Happy Saturday =D!! Day 13 of my Search

Today is Day 13 of my Fast and I am learning so much along the way as you will see in this post.

Meditation for the 13th day:

For there are three that bear witness in heaven: the Father, the Word and the Holy Spirit; and these three are one. 1 John 5:7

I am enjoying a quite day at home... last night boyfriend and I had some quality time together, he had school early in the morning at 7 am and I was at work, but we managed to get some US time in and today he naps all day, poor baby he works in the night so he gets home around 7 am and will nap the whole day, just to head back to work tonight at 10 pm, and he will do the same tomorrow and Monday.

He has a hectic schedule and so much on his plate, and  I must tell you that I am ashamed of myself
Let me explain, I have been focusing on my spiritual life and because of that  I was able to realize that some of the actions and attitudes that I was exhibiting were not appropriate. Well as I just explained by Boyfriend goes to school in the AM and works at night, so that pretty much doesn't leave much free time for us to spend like we used to. So,  selfish me... I have been tormenting him and complaining about how HE DOES NOT HAVE TIME FOR ME!!.. Yes I said I was ashamed.

I realized that I wasn't being a supportive girlfriend, instead I was behaving like my old self... a selfish Brat, that was used to getting her way. So I did some soul searching and I read my second book, which is The fruits of the Flesh and the Fruits of the Spirit, and I realized that my Flesh was taking the best of me. So I  took my medicine and decided to be a big girl and I apologized for not being there for him, like he was and is for me specially  when I was in school and working even on the weekends he never complained. Pretty soon I will be in school again and will be working and will have limitation like he does, and I realized that It was not because he cared less for me, but because school needs to be completed and we have to wait for free time to have some fun.

I was so selfish and I used great terms and my knowledge in Psychology to make him think that I had a point, I even said I was not a Priority to him and how I felt abandoned =( yes i know.. so bad,  to which he Replied "You are a priority, Everything I do is for you". And he demonstrated it by making time for me. Yesterday he went to school from 7 am to 3 pm and needed to get to work from 10 pm to 6:30 am, in between there he takes a nap, but instead he went to my work to pick me up and spent some time with me. At around 8 pm, I saw his eyes bloodshot and tired and I felt so bad.. here I am making the person I Love suffer just to please my selfish desires. I saw him with my Spiritual eyes and with my heart and it hurt me to see him that way.  I realized that I was not being such a good person, and that instead of helping him be a better person, I was tormenting him. Abusing the Love he has for me and making him sacrifice himself to prove a point that didn't need to be proven.

I am supposed to be there for him, cheering him on and helping him be the best, just like he does for me, but instead I let the ideas of the world into my life and instead of appreciating the things he does, I focused on the things that he couldn't do. And Lost track of the things I am supposed to do for him.

Such a lesson learned, I was expecting to receive more than what I was giving... doesn't work that way in Life, School, Relationships and specially with God.

xoxox till tomorrow be Blessed Liz

9th Day of My Journey

Hello my friends =D.. Hope you are all having a good week. I just wanted to stop and say Hello and wish you all a very blessed week.. Hope your weather is as good as mine. This is where I am headed on the next sunny and Free day.We are finally having good weather in LA and I feel like I need some fun in the sun.

I am feeling a bit better and my arm is giving me a little pain but compared to January it is better.
Also I am in day 9th of my fast and I can tell you I am ok without Netflix.. and I was never a TV addict so that isn't problem. I am enjoying a book titled "In God's Footsteps" and I am learning so much more about JC and the Gifts of the Holy Spirit.

My mother is also in the same Spirit and she used to watch a soap opera with my dad in the night and it's funny because Dad tell her. you don't want to watch it with me any more.. =D He doesn't know what she is doing, so she has to go to bed early to avoid the temptation.


Todays Verse to reflect upon is:

Reflections for the 9th day of the Daniel Fast:

And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. Romans 8:9


See why I am so deternined to do this, Jesus to me is very important, for a long time I was in darkness and alone and  Jesus was the one who answered My Call for Help and that's why I owe him my everything. If it wasn't for his grace , I would not exist and I don't ever want to go back to where he took me out of, So I am determined to belong to him, because with out him and his grace I am nothing.
 

xoxoxo Liz

Gloomy Ruby Gloom weekend =(

This is turning out to be the gloomiest weekend ever.. and I feel so much like Ruby Gloom. Not only are we expecting rain, the sky is gray and the dark clouds have overpowered my beautiful sun. That's nature ruining my weekend.... but a greater power is making it far worst, my nephews are not here for this weekend. And man I am Bored and I miss them dearly.  My nephew seems to have misbehaved at school and as it seems nothing is as important to him and coming home for the weekend. So I am sad to say that I have become a reinforcing prize. =( behave in school and spend the whole weekend with your aunt exploring and learning and having a blast. Misbehave and your weekends are dull and no Tia ( Aunt) for you. Bummer what's a Kid to do.. well I hope he behaves because I will plea my case to him and let him know how horrible I felt being left alone and with broken plans for the weekend =D.

I am serious I clear my calendar for my Nephews, that's the only time I am able to see them so I make sure we have enough quality time to compensate for the whole week that just passed and the new week to come. So I pretty much have a Free Agenda. Well its going to rain so lets just chill at home. And Pray that this is enough to get the message across.

As harsh as it may seem I agree that when you misbehave there is a Prize to pay, I pray that he understands and that this doesn't happen again. Its hard on children when they are not being raised in a two parent household. And the parents need to agree and help each other specially in the discipline area of raising children. I personally do not advocate or believe in physically discipline, that doesn't work, no matter how much people try to convince themselves that it does. It doesn't I have seen the effects that type of parenting leaves on adult children and I would never allow that to happen to any children on my watch.  So the Psychologist in me prefers an alternative and we do Positive Reinforcers , I have showed my ex-sister in law how everything can be achieved with reinforcers, I have done so with my nephew since day one. But the problem is that he was used to me being the authority figure and what I say is Law. Now that he is living back with his mom, she needs to have that authority. So I have to do everything to help her achieve the goal. Even if it feels horrible, its for the best and I applaud her for not resorting to violence and instead is using reinforcers =D.

So as I sit here sans the nephews, mom and the Boy friend who works at night is catching up on some needed Zzz..Zzzzz. I will have to get creative. I have a lot of things I could write about and a lot of goodies that I have purchased that I could share my thoughts on, I only need to get this camera to work properly.

So I bid you farewell =) and I hope your weekends is brighter than mine. Such a Spoiled Cali Girl, I am complaining about the gloom =( I apologize for that.  May the Lord Bless you all abundantly and keep you all safe and may he Help Japan and Libya !

xoxoxo Liz

Quality Time with Mom

Hello there hope you guys had a great day. I am still off work until my arms, wrists and shoulders completely heal. So as part of my Physical Therapy I need to stretch and walk and move so my tired limbs get energy. I can honestly tell you that I miss work , I am the type of person that needs to be busy and I have been cooped up in my home for 2 months.

You might say WOW.. so much to do in all that free time, my friend from work thought I was all over town enjoying my free time. My HR manager also told me to take advantage of the free time I have and do all those things that when I was at work I would find myself wishing I could do.  Like going to the beach , going shopping, taking Pictures, exercising. But they forgot one important things, I was in major pain and on some strong medication, All I did for the first month at all and take more medication to take the pain away.  Last week I can honestly say that I finally started to feel like my old self.

But now there's another problem everyone else is at work or busy... so  I might have all the time in the world now to go and see the great outdoors but no one to go with. Even my mom is busy, so I just stay home and do my therapy. I go and take a 40 min walk come back home do more stretches go to church spend some time with JC then come home check out a Flix on Netflix and the day is over. So as you can see its easy to understand when I say I AM BORED!!!

Well today after I did my work out and my Therapy I convinced my mom to stop what she was doing and just go to the mall with me, Just to walk and get out of the house Or else I would go Crazy.

So she did, after I bribed her with the though of some Yummy Panda Express.. =)

So for the First time in months I can finally say that I enjoyed my day. We walked around the mall and stop at Macy's.. you guys I love Macy's.  I worked there for 3 years and I had a great time meeting people and the smell  of new things is unbelievable. Plus that's where I met my shibi. So I have a lot of good memories at Macy's.  I had to resist the urge to stop over the MAC counter.. because I am going to the MAC Pro store this week so I couldn't justify buying something just because. Well my mom loves shoes and purses. Luckily for my wallet she did not see anything that she liked =D thank GOD.
I am not working right now so I have to be cautious as to how I spend $$.

After  on our way to the food court we went to the Hello Kitty store and I bought a Hello Kitty Key cover. Just to loose it minutes later,  I was so disappointed and I didn't even notice it was missing until I got home and needed to open my gate and couldn't find my key.
(By the way this is the second time this has happened, so I am not going to try to buy another Hello Kitty key cover) But seriously aren't they so cute?

 

But as my mom said "be grateful we are safe and that you only lost something that cost $5", but I am sorry.. .$5 is still too much to loose, plus I lost my key and  I really liked and wanted the Kitty cover.

But I am happy because minus my Hello Kitty incident I had a Blast with my mom and yes she sure did get her Panda Express she loves that food. Mainly because it is the only fast food that does not make her tummy sick.

well time to go do more therapy.. xoxoxox and have a great evening, take a moment to smell the flowers and spend some quality time with your mom and your loved ones. Remember  the time we spend with each other is Priceless, and our days are not always Promised.


love ya Liz

Happy Birthday D.. May God Bless you with your Hearts Desire

My nephew's Birthday was a blast, we had a small dinner at home with the family, he loved it. He said that it was the best Birthday Ever  =D. His mom side of the family called him on the phone to wish him a Happy Birthday. They took turns calling so he was so happy answering the Phone every time the phone rang it was someone wishing him a Happy Birthday, my friends also called him they know him since he was born so he really loved the pouring of Love. He is truly Loved thank You God for all your love and all the wonderful people that send D their love.

My Guinea Pig is in Heaven

I am so sad and I feel so bad, one of our Pet Guinea Pigs died this morning.  We have 2 little Pet guineas and they love to eat, and make funny sounds, but yesterday when I got home, I checked in on them to see if they had food and to change the water and our Damien Michael Sniffy ( that's her name) was not her happy bouncy self. It was about 8:30 pm, so I changed their bedding and gave them fresh water and food , but she was not interested, she just wanted to lay down. She moved 3 times , very slowly and refuse to eat. That's when I knew something was not right. I thought it might be the Cold that was bothering her, So I put some Warm t shirts inside their home. Her baby stayed with her all this time and did not move. I figured she would be ok, and we would take her to the Vet today. But at 4:45 am when I got up to check on them, She was no longer alive she was still warm , but had no heart rate and was stretched out =(...

The baby Guinea, that's  her name my nephew just named her that, she isn't a baby anymore she is now full grown  was laying next to her mother and did not move until I removed her from her bedding. I changed the bedding and put DM Sniffy in a Black Shoe box. We will be laying her to rest this evening. My nephew is sad this was his pet and does not understand why we have to die.

To many people this may sound weird and I know some won't understand, but we are Pet Lovers as long as I can remember we have always had some kind of pets. We have had dogs and Rabbits,  Parakeets, Cockatoos and Snakes, Fish ( all types) and  Doves, and even a cat for a brief moment , I am allergic to them.  They become part of our family and they even take on our last names, so when one of them dies, it's  a loss to the family one of its members is gone and we have to deal with the loss.  3 years ago I loss my Floppy he was my Dog and I felt horribly, my co worker didn't understand why I felt so sad, I told him, you obviously have never had the pleasure and privilege to know unconditional love that dogs or pets in general give. They become our play mates when we don't have one, our siblings when the ones we have are too busy to spend time with us and our guardians when our parents are away and we are home alone. And the hardest thing to do is to see your beloved Pet slowly leaving and you not being able to do anything to help them.

As always even on their last breath they teach us a lesson, both my Floppy and Sniffy were so peaceful, all they wanted to do was sleep, and they just kept looking at me.. and all I could say was.. I am sorry you don't feel well and rub their back. And tell them Thank You for being such great Pets and for Loving me. The pets that remain  also teach us a lesson, they teach us Love and Fidelity, Compasion and Empathy. Both My Dog Brownie and the Baby Guinea stayed next to their friend  until they expired, not leaving their side to eat or drink, and not moving even after they were gone, keping them warm by just laying next to them. That is devotion and Love and friendship until death a qualities that the majority of us  humans are incapable of  giving.

Many in this world put their dying parents into homes and are not at their bed side when they breath their last breath. But Animals they do , they stay there with you till the end and they truly mourn you and feel the loss.
Here is a Video of our Babies, Damien Michael Sniffy is the one with  the brown and white face they other one is her baby.

Typhoon...

As a Christmas gift I took my BF to dinner... LOL he loves being treated like a Prince =D.

Anyways he had been mentioning his desire to try this restaurant , because they serve certain dishes that you won't find in most places. The Restaurant is great, it is next to Santa Monica Airport and it has the best Lamb ever. I don't eat Lamb.. but their lamb.. I will definitely eat. But he mostly wanted to try the Scorpions and the Silk Worms. Yes, that is what he wanted so .. I made reservations for us and we set on trying something new.

So we started with some appetizers.. NO wait..let me tell you about the regular food first.

 They have wonderful Thai Food the Lamb like I said was awesome and it is served with these rectangular bread that seem to be a mix of croissants and rolls. The Lamb is cut is thin slices and it is mixed with some yummy spices and veggies.. this was my Favorite. We ordered a side of white rice and this was yummy.

It was delicious, will go back for some more... the Lamb was about $19

I also wanted to make sure I ate something that I liked so I ordered some Kung Pao shrimp ( I don't like Lamb so I was not planing  on eating Lamb)

The Shrimp were Ok,not what I expected they were good , but needed some veggies and some spiciness, it only had a whole bunch of Onions and Peanuts.. =(  

This was around $11.. skip it and get the Lamb =)

and We also ordered some Pai Thai Noodles which we didn't even touch and we took home.

Spicy Chile, always need this to make food better!

The following pictures might be a bit to much for some of you so "WARNING" .

Like I mentioned before he wanted to try something new and the main reason for going to dinner was to try the following plates.  

We ordered the Scorpions and the Silkworm plate. 

The scorpions were rather interesting, I didn't taste them since they were really small and super crunchy and were on top of a bread with Shrimp, I only tasted the shrimp , but I did feel the tail of it.. as I did not chew it properly.. it kinda scratched my throat.
Also 1 order is for 2 Small Scorpions..this was about $9- $11

and The Silk worms were as J described them rather nutty.. yup they were like peanut butter filled =D...I was avoiding tasting them , but he insisted and he seemed to like them so I said I would think about it.

 Proof that I had some.. LOL.. not my best picture, I look really tired =(..

and here is my J...looking at the Silk worms.. with those little eyes of his..

And I washed it all down with some Yummy and super tall glass of Thai Iced Tea.

The Food was good, the Service was great, the ambiance was calm and intimate and we had a blast. =D

So if you are interested in trying some of this yummy and interesting food, check them out ! We made reservations , but traffic was great so we made it there 1 hour before our reservation, but they were very kind and moved our reservation to 5:30 pm. Also thats the time the kitchen opens so plan acordingly.

Typhoon it is located next to the Santa Monica Airport 3221 Donald Douglas Loop South  Santa Monica, CA  90405

Time for Giving...

The Holidays are here and it is a time for giving,  every year I try to do something special for someone in need, for the last couple of years I have taken part in distributing  bags filled with food and toiletries for the Runaways and the next year we focused on giving backpacks filled with goodies to the Gay and Lesbians youth of Hollywood and the Homeless with my friend Joanne. This year it was a hard year financially and we will not be able to give the Knapp sack to the runaways . So I was a bit disappointed but I really wanted to do something It's a Promise to myself to share what God has given me and try to do something special.

Luckily I was able to participate with my co-workers family. His cousins are going to Mexico to an Orphanage to take cheer and gifts to little Kids. So I  spent the last two days filling up 70 treat bags. I made them with lots of Love and I prayed while I filled them up and I asked the Lord to bless the kids who will receive the little bags. I know it's something small, but I hope that it cheers their heart and that they enjoy all the sweets that I am sending.  I wish I could do so much more, and I hope that one day I am able to make a big impact on someones life.  I would like to take this time to remind you that if there is something that you can do to make this Holiday a little bit better for someone, to please do it.

Its such a blessing and your heart fills up with so much joy.

Love Liz

DREAM Act news: With bill stalled in Senate, what happens next?

DREAM Act news: With bill stalled in Senate, what happens next?

I am paying close attention to this because it is a topic dear to my heart. I am a Citizen of this country, but I was not born here. I like hundreds of thousands of students, children and young men and women was brought to this country as a child by my mother. I understand that by her doing so, she was breaking the law. But my mother took the chance because she wanted to give me a Chance. A chance at a different life than hers. My mother and I were born in El Salvador, she lacked the opportunity to obtain and education because she was born in poverty and had to start to work at the age of 8 years old. At the age of 16 she found a job as a nanny and a cook in the homes of foreign diplomats. But after I was born in her late 20's she left her country and family and made the dangerous journey to the States where she worked as a house keeper for more than 30 years. She washed toilets and cleaned houses to give me a better life. At 63 her hands are damaged from the cleaning materials she used to clean the homes of many Americans.
Kind hearted people who had love and compassion and hired her because she was a good woman and they could trust her with their home. In the 80's when President Ronald Reagan passed the Immigration act, which made it illegal to hire illegal immigrants, he also gave an Amnesty to millions, of whom I was one of them. Thanks to that small window he opened I was able to become a legal resident and eventually a Citizen.

My mother worked 7 days a week and pride herself in providing for me food and shelter, she never received welfare, and she never applied for Medical, and always worked and payed her taxes. I was able to attend Public school , and I was so grateful to have that opportunity and I took the gift of knowledge that she and this country had given me and I ran with it.

I am now urging and sending emails to my Representatives and even opened a twitter account to follow the Senators who now hold the power to give an opportunity like the one I once received to many very well deserving children and young men and women. And above all I am Praying to He who is the King of Kings and who holds the earth in the Palm of his hands ,to touch the heart of those who hold the authority to pass this Dream Act.

I was brought here not by choice, but by choice I became a Citizen of this Nation and I am proud to call myself and American, I urge all to contact your representative and give some one like myself a chance to achieve their American Dream.

Michael Jackson - Hold My Hand (Duet with Akon)

Just found a  new Song by MJ and Akon .. and All I can say is I LOVE IT.

It reminds me of my Nephew.. he has been really close to me and when ever he felt in danger or needs to feel safe and secure he Tells me" Tia .. Hold My Hand!"

That is his way to ask for help.. I tried to tell him that when he is scared to tell himself that he is going to be ok.. But I finally understood that sometimes we already know we are going to be OK and all we need is for someone to stand next to us to re affirm it.

That's what D was doing all along, when he felt frighten and his heart started pounding and he felt like crying and running away he would always grab my hand wrap it around his and say "HOLD MY HAND" his way of saying "I am facing my fear.. I just need you to stand with me to help me over come it".

Once I understood I told him, whenever u feel in danger and frighten.. remember.. I will always be right next to you.. holding your hand.. and U, Me and Jesus.. we can conquer everything.

This song has the same sentiment, we all need someone who will Hold our Hand and help us overcome what ever difficulties come our way. I am so glad I am his Hold My Hand person =).

Should "Fatties" Get a Room? (Even on TV?)

Should "Fatties" Get a Room? (Even on TV?)

As I arrived to work this morning.. I am greeted by my co worker who is telling me about this article written by Maura Kelly for marieclaire.com so I went over to read it.

You can take a look and read it just follow this link-- but maybe that's not such a good idea.. we will just be giving them more hits on their website =b.. ugh and I really don't want to do that.. but in case u r interested..  http://www.marieclaire.com/sex-love/dating-blog/overweight-couples-on-television

First let me tell you that I watch Mike and Molly and I have been doing so since the first Episode and I love it. I was excited to finally have a Show that has a Heart and shows feelings and can be relate able. The characters are great, and so down to earth and not fake and materialistic like other shows. I love Molly a School Teacher , played by the super adorable Melissa McCarthy (who played Sooky St James in Gilmore Girls and Dena in Samantha Who? ) and Mike one of Chicago's' Finest a Police officer who is played by Billy Gardell. I Love the characters and the Actors who portray them and to write something that undermines their work and their persons  is just so petty.

The show is about them finding each other and the struggles they endure some of them are in regards to their weight but mostly the show is about their blooming relationship and about the relationship they have with the people around them. I love the show because its a show that is Funny and has contents and its not a superficial show where every one is a size 1 and living in a penthouse or on the hills.

It's also more than a show about 2 people who are struggling with their over eating eating/weight. Its a show about Love and how two people who feel insecurities about themselves, finally take the leap of faith and put their fears to the side and take a chance on Love and on each other.  Something that we can all relate, because lets be honest we all have something that makes us insecure, that's what makes us human and I can empathise with others.

I am personally not offended by seeing two people who love each other kiss on TV or in public and I am not offended by seeing people who might not be what society thinks as perfect or beautiful show Public Displays of Affection. Love is Love and its a blessing to find it.

And I also understand that being overweight is not a good thing for health reasons. But no one has the right to criticize and make mean comments about other people and their appearance and say that they look disgusting.

However I am DISGUSTED by the Article written for marieclaire.com by Maura Kelly. I find that Article, the writer and specially marieclaire.com offensive for allowing this writer to write all that garbage.

I don't know about the rest of you, but to me by allowing this article to be posted on their website, it means that marieclaire.com supports this offensive view of overweight people.

To write about our opinions is one thing to blatantly state the following (straight quote from her article) is another.

"So anyway, yes, I think I'd be grossed out if I had to watch two characters with rolls and rolls of fat kissing each other ... because I'd be grossed out if I had to watch them doing anything. To be brutally honest, even in real life, I find it aesthetically displeasing to watch a very, very fat person simply walk across a room "—Should "Fatties" Get a Room? (Even on TV?) October 25, 2010 9:00 AM by Maura Kelly

You would think that this type of article would not have been written, specially in the wake of all the bulling that has been taking place and after a flood of all those Public Service announces calling for tolerance.

We need to remember that tolerance applies to every one who feels picked on for what ever reason be it that you are having issues with they way you look, your weight, sexual orientations, color or Race.
There was even one from President Obama calling for Tolerance and To Stop Bullying.. obviously this does not apply to certain people who think that because they look a certain way or have a certain job or position , they have the right to say offensive things and dictate what they think is beautiful, or acceptable in society.

If you are blessed to be in a position to get your voice across to the masses.. be responsible and let that VOICE be heard and used for goodness to uplift and help others , and not to criticize and beat someone down.

xoxox sea

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PS... To learn more about the writer you can google her name or take a look at her bio below according to it she herself has has suffered from an eating disorder.. and maybe she is experiencing self loathing and is projecting her discomfort. I can only pray for her and hope that she learns from this and is able to learn to love herself and others.

***Her Bio from marieclaire.com
Maura Kelly

Maura Kelly is a freelance writer who is working on a novel. Some of the things she loves: indie rock, peanut butter, Fellini films, the Brooklyn Bridge, running (slowly) in Prospect Park (always wearing New Balance sneakers) and The Brothers Karamazov. And definitely her friends, too; her tight circle includes a fashion designer, a hard news journalist, a couple magazine editors, a bike messenger-turned-lawyer, a professor of philosophy and an aspiring screenwriter. On her dating resume, there's an unusual number of visual artists, a couple of jazz musicians, and one guy named Thor. Though she's in her thirties, she's never been in love before - and has started to wonder if she ever will be. She's decided she has to start making dating her job if it's ever going to happen. Hence, this blog. Her personal essays have appeared or are forthcoming in The New York Times, The New York Observer, The Washington Post, New York Press, Glamour, Salon, "Before and After: Stories from New York," and "Going Hungry: Writers on Desire, Denial and Overcoming Anorexia," to name a few.

Twitter.com/MauraKellyBlog

War and Battle

Today I was blessed to go to church and take my niece and my nephew to Sunday school. After service I always ask them what did they learn ? They are still small , my niece is 5 yrs and my nephew is 7 yrs old.. they show me their assignment for the day.. which usually consists of a bible verse and and entire page full of colors and drawings.

Then they proceed to tell me what the Sunday school teacher attempted to teach them. Sometimes it does not go that well because there is always a story about another child who happens to misbehave, but today, it was different , I asked them what the subject for their lesson was and they replied.. "What was yours, what did u learn??

So I felt surprised and did not expect to get that reply..specially since today.. it was one of those services where you know GOD is talking to you.. because everything that comes out of the Man of God is exactly what you need to hear. So I proceeded to tell them how we Learned about "Forgiveness" and having a heart full of Joy and empty of anger, resentment and hate. And how if GOD sees us walking around with a heart full of all this garbage , he can never make us happy. How we need to allow GOD to cleanse our being and make us new individuals, how we need to be different from the rest of the world.. and how we need to forgive those who have harmed us.

My nephew.. then replied.. MMMmm we learned the same thing.. =D

and them they showed me their work as usual.. a page with a bible verse and a study guide which has been covered completely with drawings..

But even if they bring back a page filled with drawings, My nephew draws whales and my niece draws monkeys... I hope that small baby seeds of faith are being planted and that as they grow these little seeds grow until the day arrives that they will be ready to mature and bloom.

When that day comes.. I pray that they are ready for War and Battle and that God covers them with all his Armor and gives them victory.

Blessings to all and may you all have a Blessed week

sea xoxox

Promises

Since as long as I can remember there is one thing that I always told myself.. Don't make a Promise if you don't intend to keep it.

Speaking with my nephew and niece , I was reminded how intelligent we are when we are children. How even as a Child we know the meaning of a Promise and how important it is for us to for the person who made a promise to keep them. Little things such as promising to call and say Good night. Or promising to spend time with you.

As a Child I grew up away from my parents, for reason only they knew they were no longer living together. I was 2 years old and I was living with my maternal grandmother who raised me as her own. I knew my father and I would see him every 2 weeks. My mother was just a distant memory.. I saw pictures of her , but I could not remember her ever being with me. But Life was good.. I do know that my mother sent money and clothes and when birthdays came around I always had new shoes and dresses. Specially those puffy "look at me I should be on top of a Cake dresses".

And I was told they came from "mommy" who was living here in the U.S. and I was back in El Salvador. Yes I am not born here , I migrated to the states when I was 5 years old. Anyways my mother had promised herself to give my grandmother and me a better life than the one she had. And maybe as a child and a teenager and even now I sometimes have a hard time understanding.. But I must confess that I appreciate all the hard work that "mommy" did to give me a better life.

She had made a promise and I finally understand that sometimes LOVE is demonstrated in many ways. Some give hugs , some give kisses, some give life, and others give Dreams.. but just a few Give away their dreams to make ours a reality.
So to My mother I say "Thank You" .. for giving up her dream to make sure that I was able to dream.

She tells me she wanted to be a Nurse, but honestly I thing she could have been a Great Surgeon.. She is a strong woman , handling cuts , blood and all that stuff that makes me dizzy admirably. She is such a strong hearted person that I can bet she would have been a wonderful Doctor and not just a Nurse. But mother had to work to help her mother at the ripe age of 8 years old.. My nephew is 8 and I would not even let him go to the store alone..let alone work.

She tells me how she had to grow up fast and I see why she lacks certain skills that other mothers have.. and I fear that if i ever have children i will also lack them. not because we want to , but because we have never experienced them first hand. But all in all I love my Mother and I would not change her for the World.
She has made me into what I am today =)...mmmm she might not like to hear that.. But I do.. I consider myself a good person with a good head on my shoulder and a good heart. So if I am ever blessed with a child of my own.. I want them to be able to say the same about me..that I say about my mom.

I am sharing all of this because August is my mothers Birthday Month..YEAH!!!! and I am getting ready to celebrate her 63rd birthday. So I wanted to share what I appreciate about my mother, I think I will post something new every day. Sometimes we might not know how to show our parents that we love them... sometimes we might not have pretty words.. but we Do Love them.. as crazy as they may drive us.. I know I love them..

I am who I am because of them.. and I am happy with who I am . That speaks volumes!!

love your self and your parents cherish the moments that you have and forgive the wrongs that they do.. we are not Perfect.
xoxo sea =)

I LOVE MAY!!!!

Hi.. Everybody in Cyberspace...I am sooooo excited that we are in the month of May... its my Birth Month and I plan to enjoy Every day of the month..

On 04/30 -- I went to see Nightmare on Elm Street.. it was good but totally prefer the OG one. Then went to eat a whole platter of sea food..my addiction .. with my Shibi..

on the 1st 05/01 -- went shopping with mom.. found a cute spring dress that I will wear for my Bday..had lunch and had some quality time with mom..then went to dinner and had the best shrimp tacos ever with my shibi...

on the 2nd 05/02-- I went to church ... love Jesus and will be going out with my mom again in the hunt for new dress pants for Dad.

tomorrow the 05/03-- back to work Yuck!! and will go to the gym. Yeah !!

Man in the Mirror... Make that change !!

Happy Saturday .. every one. I am on my mini break ( I am at work) .. yes I know.. But I need the $$$$$$ so gotta work .. I am all alone and I am on a time Schedule.

Anyways.. I was just listening to my Favorite Song of all times.. and was inspired to write. If you are wondering which song it is.. It is " Man in the Mirror" by none other than Michael Jackson.

Growing up as a child we used to listen to his music and I remember being glued to the TV when ever he Performed.. One thing I regret is not being old enough to go see him Perform. He was captivating and the music spoke to my heart, I love many of his songs but two of them, are meaningful to me.

But anyways..as a child I loved this song.. because it so uplifting and its so true.. If I want to make a change I have to start with the person I see every day in the mirror (Me).

and I guess that seeing images of children suffering and living in poverty through his videos inspired me to do something. I remember that through his music and video images I learned that the world is a great big place where change needs to be done and help needs to be given to many. Sometimes we get caught up with our selfish nature and we fail to see the greater picture.

anyways time to go back, just want to say be grateful for what GOD has given you, and share it with the world. xoxoox sending you all hugs and kisses and smiles.. have a blessed and happy weekend.

Ps.. I live in LA and very closed to the Staples Center so I was lucky enough to be able to go and leave a message for MJ on this Giant Board of Love..

sea =D

Palm Sunday

 Happy Palm Sunday...

Just came back from Church and as I have mentioned before I feel so revitalized after service. Today marks the beginning of Holy Week.  And  I just want to Wish you all a Happy Sunday.. May you and all your loved ones  have a Blessed week.  May You find comfort ,if you need it, May you have strenght  when you are tested, may you have Faith when all seems gloom.. may you feel loved and know that You are loved if you ever doubt it.. and may you be filled with Joy. Blessings to all xoxoxo..sea 

Love.. an Endless Game... He Said.. She said

Hello .. let me share an interesting Phenomena.. called.. Love an endless game.

Scenario... Boy and Girl decide to go out and hang out.. 

Girl comes out of work.. tired but excited to see her love

Boy claims he is excited.. but shows a bit of frustration due to traffic

Girl feels tension.. wonders " what's going on"

Boy needs gas.. pulls at Gas station.. ask Girls if she has CASH!! 

Girl says .. : No sorry.. don't carry cash

Boy gets out upset .. did not want to use credit card in sneaky looking gas station..

Boy comes back.. mute says nothing for the next 2 hours.

Girl and Boy were going to dinner.. food is ordered and eaten .. not a word is said..

 Girl goes home.. boy is upset.. tells girl when will she be responsible and carry cash with her !!!

Girl a bit confused gets out of car, goes home.. says thanks good night

Girl texts Boy to see if he made it home OK.. no reply..

Girl goes yo Sleep

Girl calls boy .. no answer..

Girl gets the idea.. leaves boy alone.. he is upset..

Thursday.. Friday.. Saturday.. Sunday.. Monday.. Tuesday.. Wednesday..

Boy finally texts Girl.. says " you must be really busy with your friends..

Girl replies.. No really busy at work.. you finally remembered me

Boy says you never text me..

Girl says.. did you ignore.. me for 6 days

Boy..accuses girl of being mean

Girl reminds boy he was mean

Boy wont apologize and say Sorry instead asks girl to movies

Girl feels hurt.. declines on Movie Invite wants apology..

Boy tells girl you never cared about me..

Girl tells boy .. be honest with your self and dig deep and see if that's true

Boy sends smiley face .. invites to movie again.. No apology

Girl tired of this says, No.. tired

 

Boy .. oh you don't want me around..?

Girl.. you haven't been around for 6 days, so what else is new..

Boy says.. you want me to leave ??break up??

Girl said.. you did that last week.. when you  ignored me for 6 days..

Boy says you complain too much.. make life complicated

Girls said learn from your brothers see how they treat their Girls

Boy said those Girls don't complain like You do..

LOL...Girl said, LEAVE  go find one like them.. who does not complain .. and F#@$^ the Complications....

results =D..Freedom... Love Game is Over .. No more War!! No Drama.. No Complication..Oh Wait.. Boy again...

Boy said.. why are you mean .. send me a picture of You???

LOL!!!. its been so long that now I have to send him a picture of me so that he can remember who is the girl he claims he loves.. and who he is fighting with.. 

Girl said.. Good Bye... the End