Special News...

Hello every one... I have not been able to log on and write on my blog because I have been sick. Who knew that a pain on my shoulder would last this long. It was more than just a tiredness.. there is something really wrong, I have been in pain for almost a year and it doesn't seem to end, That's why I have been MIA and haven't been able to update. Actually I haven't been able to do much typing this will guarantee a pain on my right hand and some major swelling. The worst part is that it seems like since its my pain.. Dr and Insurance don't seem to care. But Thank God I have him... I am putting my health , My life and my future in his hands. And I trust he will not let me down. Right now I have so many limitations.. my life is on Hold... I will say that even in Darkness God always lets his Light shine.  As far as answering prayers he does more than that, He manifest is works in our lives so I know that this illness, pain will soon be a thing of the past and Gods name will be glorified.  As for now I need to rest and trust in him.

Oh Yeah before I forget.. I have decided what to do  with my life, with Gods Guidance I know I will get to full fill my destiny. It might just take a bit more and more work to get there.

I am also happy to announce that God is awesome and has open a door for me to continue my education. Come January I pray that I am feeling better health wise and ready to start my Masters Program at USC. =D Yes I was accepted to USC's  Master in Social Work Program and I am so excited to start. To God goes all the Glory and I pray that He continues to use me as a vessel to share his greatness with the world.  To all those who believe in a God of greatness, I tell you that he exists and No dream is too high and No obstacle too great that He can't overcome.

Sundays Blessings! on a Thursday =D

 

OMG!!! something was wrong with my computer, I thought I had posted or at least saved my entry but it didn't. So I Have to start all over.

This is what happened this past weekend I had a AHA moment.. you I know when we all are going thru life and we think we are giving it all we have .. and then BAM!! someone who truly loves you has the audacity and guts to tell you that you are doing things Half A$$.. and you cant believe you just heard that. Well I had that happen to me on Saturday and to be Honest I needed that Reality check. I tend to be some what of a Drama Queen and I get excited about many things , but I was told and I realized that I ha vent been putting my 100% into my life lately. I must confess I was devastated when I heard those words and of Course I am a big Chillona.( No wonder my boyfriend uses that as one of my Pet names) . Yes My big Brown eyes were sobbing and the biggest tear drops were flowing out of them.. for a minute I tried to dismiss it as not being real and tried to lie to  myself that it was not true.  But come Sunday morning as I arrive at church and I am ready to go and tell JC how JZ had been so blunt and called me out.. out of my Pastors Mouth comes.. " GOD WANTS YOU TO GIVE IT YOUR ALL, IN ALL YOU DO... HE REQUIRES 100% NOT 25% AND YOU GUESSED IT .. Not 50%. And Lately YOU haven't been doing that .. You ask God for his all and maybe other people in your life for their all , But you aren't giving you100%. OMG!! what was I to do, but to get rid of my Pride and accept that reality.. That in Fact I have been a slacker that I have wasted 2 years of my life contemplating what to do instead of doing it, and If I am in a place in my life where I am not happy, I am the only one to Blame, its not God and it's not those around you that keep you do, It is YOURSELF.

Man that was tough and it felt like a slap in the Face times 2. But I accepted that my Boyfriend was correct when he stated that I am not working to my potential and I had no other choice than to specially when God himself  thru his vessel my Pastor confirmed it. So I asked God for forgiveness for being such a useless individual and I vowed to make a change. I am on day 4 and I am getting my things in order. I have plans and dreams and I have given myself a year (long term) to transform my life around. Short term I am already working on it and I promised myself to invest more time on me and not be so complacent.

So I felt the need to share this with all of you who may read this.. Don't ask God to change your life unless you are willing to change it first.  Also don't wait for God to send you an answer and to do something for you, unless you are willing to Jump and put your trust in him. And most importantly don't expect your life to change unless you take the First step and move to make it change. Remember Faith is believing in something that you can't see.  Its time we all put our faith into action and once you do that we will see The Power of GOD manifest in our  life.

Thank You GOD for one more Birthday !!

PS..I found tis cute bear on line he is not mine, I just love him

Hello every one Yeah!! today is My B-day and I am unfortunately at work with a Flu and with some major pain on my neck/ back and shoulders, but I am grateful that I have one more day in this life that God has been so kind enough to lend me. Last night I did my Thank You prayer and I asked the Lord for guidance. I am also Happy to say that I know what I will study next, I am not going to say what my decision is, I will wait for a better time to share with all of you, But As a b-day gift I asked Jesus to help me achieve my Purpose and my Dreams. And to use me to help others achieve theirs.

 I called my Twin and I wished her a Happy birthday she is also sick with the Flu I think I gave it to her ( by the way in case you did not read my previous entry my twin is my now 6 year old Niece, we are born on the same day " so in her 5 year old brain .. that means we are twins.. =D.

I have been blessed with many Happy Birthdays and I am so Thankful for the loved ones in my life that remembered.. I don't know what My boyfriend has in stored, I did say I wanted to go to Disneyland.. but I am not feeling good so I don't think I have the energy to do that. And as far as my Wish list.. this is the first year that I didn't have a list of stuff.. I was more concerned with God guiding me into my right path that I kinda focused my energy into asking the Lord for that type of blessing.
 =(... maybe that means I am growing up and maturing.

At work my Friends decorated my area with happy birthdays decorations and we cut a huge chocolate Cake . Yum Yum.. and then we hit Shakeys for a not so healthy but oh so good Lunch =D.

Anyways I hope you are all in good health and I pray that God blesses all my loved ones. my nephews and my Family and me with Love, Health Prosperity and Happiness. For my wish I wish blessings for all of us who need them and may God give us many many more years to grow in his presence.

xoxoxo and Thank You
Liz

Happy Saturday =D!! Day 13 of my Search

Today is Day 13 of my Fast and I am learning so much along the way as you will see in this post.

Meditation for the 13th day:

For there are three that bear witness in heaven: the Father, the Word and the Holy Spirit; and these three are one. 1 John 5:7

I am enjoying a quite day at home... last night boyfriend and I had some quality time together, he had school early in the morning at 7 am and I was at work, but we managed to get some US time in and today he naps all day, poor baby he works in the night so he gets home around 7 am and will nap the whole day, just to head back to work tonight at 10 pm, and he will do the same tomorrow and Monday.

He has a hectic schedule and so much on his plate, and  I must tell you that I am ashamed of myself
Let me explain, I have been focusing on my spiritual life and because of that  I was able to realize that some of the actions and attitudes that I was exhibiting were not appropriate. Well as I just explained by Boyfriend goes to school in the AM and works at night, so that pretty much doesn't leave much free time for us to spend like we used to. So,  selfish me... I have been tormenting him and complaining about how HE DOES NOT HAVE TIME FOR ME!!.. Yes I said I was ashamed.

I realized that I wasn't being a supportive girlfriend, instead I was behaving like my old self... a selfish Brat, that was used to getting her way. So I did some soul searching and I read my second book, which is The fruits of the Flesh and the Fruits of the Spirit, and I realized that my Flesh was taking the best of me. So I  took my medicine and decided to be a big girl and I apologized for not being there for him, like he was and is for me specially  when I was in school and working even on the weekends he never complained. Pretty soon I will be in school again and will be working and will have limitation like he does, and I realized that It was not because he cared less for me, but because school needs to be completed and we have to wait for free time to have some fun.

I was so selfish and I used great terms and my knowledge in Psychology to make him think that I had a point, I even said I was not a Priority to him and how I felt abandoned =( yes i know.. so bad,  to which he Replied "You are a priority, Everything I do is for you". And he demonstrated it by making time for me. Yesterday he went to school from 7 am to 3 pm and needed to get to work from 10 pm to 6:30 am, in between there he takes a nap, but instead he went to my work to pick me up and spent some time with me. At around 8 pm, I saw his eyes bloodshot and tired and I felt so bad.. here I am making the person I Love suffer just to please my selfish desires. I saw him with my Spiritual eyes and with my heart and it hurt me to see him that way.  I realized that I was not being such a good person, and that instead of helping him be a better person, I was tormenting him. Abusing the Love he has for me and making him sacrifice himself to prove a point that didn't need to be proven.

I am supposed to be there for him, cheering him on and helping him be the best, just like he does for me, but instead I let the ideas of the world into my life and instead of appreciating the things he does, I focused on the things that he couldn't do. And Lost track of the things I am supposed to do for him.

Such a lesson learned, I was expecting to receive more than what I was giving... doesn't work that way in Life, School, Relationships and specially with God.

xoxox till tomorrow be Blessed Liz

Gloomy Ruby Gloom weekend =(

This is turning out to be the gloomiest weekend ever.. and I feel so much like Ruby Gloom. Not only are we expecting rain, the sky is gray and the dark clouds have overpowered my beautiful sun. That's nature ruining my weekend.... but a greater power is making it far worst, my nephews are not here for this weekend. And man I am Bored and I miss them dearly.  My nephew seems to have misbehaved at school and as it seems nothing is as important to him and coming home for the weekend. So I am sad to say that I have become a reinforcing prize. =( behave in school and spend the whole weekend with your aunt exploring and learning and having a blast. Misbehave and your weekends are dull and no Tia ( Aunt) for you. Bummer what's a Kid to do.. well I hope he behaves because I will plea my case to him and let him know how horrible I felt being left alone and with broken plans for the weekend =D.

I am serious I clear my calendar for my Nephews, that's the only time I am able to see them so I make sure we have enough quality time to compensate for the whole week that just passed and the new week to come. So I pretty much have a Free Agenda. Well its going to rain so lets just chill at home. And Pray that this is enough to get the message across.

As harsh as it may seem I agree that when you misbehave there is a Prize to pay, I pray that he understands and that this doesn't happen again. Its hard on children when they are not being raised in a two parent household. And the parents need to agree and help each other specially in the discipline area of raising children. I personally do not advocate or believe in physically discipline, that doesn't work, no matter how much people try to convince themselves that it does. It doesn't I have seen the effects that type of parenting leaves on adult children and I would never allow that to happen to any children on my watch.  So the Psychologist in me prefers an alternative and we do Positive Reinforcers , I have showed my ex-sister in law how everything can be achieved with reinforcers, I have done so with my nephew since day one. But the problem is that he was used to me being the authority figure and what I say is Law. Now that he is living back with his mom, she needs to have that authority. So I have to do everything to help her achieve the goal. Even if it feels horrible, its for the best and I applaud her for not resorting to violence and instead is using reinforcers =D.

So as I sit here sans the nephews, mom and the Boy friend who works at night is catching up on some needed Zzz..Zzzzz. I will have to get creative. I have a lot of things I could write about and a lot of goodies that I have purchased that I could share my thoughts on, I only need to get this camera to work properly.

So I bid you farewell =) and I hope your weekends is brighter than mine. Such a Spoiled Cali Girl, I am complaining about the gloom =( I apologize for that.  May the Lord Bless you all abundantly and keep you all safe and may he Help Japan and Libya !

xoxoxo Liz

Decision Points...

Greetings.. Hope u all had a wonderful weekend and I want to Say Thank You to all of you for following my blog.

I am feeling a bit under the weather.. I seem to have gotten a cold..=(.. I hate colds and they knock me out.

This weekend even as sick and weak as I was feeling .. I had promised my nephews to take them to the Movies. So on Saturday morning I had to roll out of bed and head over to LA LIVE .

 Actually  we needed to go to REGAL Theater.. at LA Live.. but my nephew always says.. Lets go to LA Live. We went and made it to the 1:30 pm showing of Megamind, and of course no kid wants to see movies in 2D any more. Its all about 3D.. but that makes me DIZZY =( but the nephews were eagered to get their hands on the 3D glasses.. that they asked for 3D please.. ughh!! not only was I going to be dizzy.. I was also going to have to pay a pretty penny.. because 3D is not cheap.. but promises r promises.

I am also excited because I am taking a little step to improving my work.. and I hope that this will help me get to my goal .. which I believe I decided what I am going to do with my life.. I just need to find my steeping stones to get me to my desired goal .

On a random note  I came upon this cute bottle Stopper.. last year for my b day my coworkers decorated  one of our conference rooms all in pink and we had the most adorable pink Napkins just like the picture above of the Girl in Pink.. with the most awesomness quote " I was never meant to Work"  LOL.. the Irony.

xoxox
sea =)

Climb that Mountain!!

what's on mind.. what's on my mind..??

I am sitting here thinking about life ( Yet Again) .. Yesterday I climbed a huge Mountain.. Honestly I did... I huffed and puffed all the way up to it.. I had set in mind that this time I was not doing it for a physical reward (exercise) .. But that I was in search of a Spiritual reward.

I was drained tired and I had a bad day .. at work I felt trapped.. I felt like I was in a cage and I wanted to run out.. But I was not able.. I am responsible and I want my job.. but I was having a " moment" .. a what Am I doing with my life moment.. A I want so much out of life and my mind is tired of thinking " what do I do next ? ".

I felt loss and like I needed to scream .. vent to do something..

Anyways work day was over and I headed with a lot of apprehension to the Mountain.
I have been climbing this mountain for a couple of weeks.. I am on a get fit or burst Mode.

But this time it was different. I climb and I said to myself.. " I will be at the highest point that I can be.. and I will be that much closer to GOD.."

As I went up and felt all the pain in my legs and bottom that I could bear .. I kept telling myself.. make it to the top .. U have to.

I got the strength that I did not know I still had.. As I started I was so tired that I said " God don't let me die doing this climb" because I was so exhausted..

But anyways .. I made it to the Top.. and as I walked to the Pinnacle of the Hill... I called upon God and I evoked him in the Name of His Son and I asked for the Holy Spirit to come to me and fill me with strength.

And I proceeded to make this prayer .. I asked GOD for guidance.. I asked him for Help.. I asked him to speak to me. I asked to show me my purpose and I asked for blessings in my life .. my spiritual , Sentimental and Financial.. I felt so much better and my mind felt so much at ease..

Today I will do it again.. for I fear that the every day Hassel are blocking my mind and are not allowing me to think..

I need to think out side the box.. I need to dance to the beat of my own drum , I need to make a decision that will be beneficial to my soul and to my pocket book..

Anyways .. I just thought I would share with you al this.. I am on a Journey ..I am trying to find myself and the place that I will play in this world.. Not an easy thing to do.. so I pray That GOD in his infinite mercy .. can help me and guide me through this.. and that I may glorify his Holy name, in what ever I decide to be or do.

xoxoox sea

My 100th Post...Rigths/ Freedom/ Equality

I had been wanting to post something for the entire week.. but I wanted to make it an extra Special Post , since it will be my 100th Post.

This week unconsciously I have been watching videos that show the trials and tribulations that women have to deal with around the world. On the weekend I saw a Documentary called "The Burqa Battle" on the French government's steps to ban the use of burqas.

And yesterday I saw a movie titled "The Stoning", about an American woman in Iran who gets rape and eventually is stoned to Death for Adultery. Anyways after seeing both of these movies, I could only say how grateful I am to be living in this country. I was thinking about all the freedoms that we women have and that we take for granted.

We have the choice to decide to wear what ever we want and go where ever we want and not fear being beaten and stoned to death. How a woman in the States has the right to speak her mind, to choose who she will marry, to be free to enjoy her sexuality, has the ability to earn a living and own property. How we are able to get an education and become successful doctors, lawyers, teachers or what ever we might want to become. How our parents would never think of hurting us for choosing to marry a boy/man outside our own race, color religion.

And just right now reading THE UK TIMES ONLINE http://www.thetimes.co.uk/tto/news/ I came up with the following story (The picture is also from same site.

Iran backs down over stoning execution (Martin Fletcher July 8 2010 5:42PM)

Iran has backed down in the face of rising outrage and announced that a woman convicted of alleged adultery will be spared execution by stoning. But it is not clear if Sakineh Mohammadi Ashtiani will be executed by hanging.

To read the full story please visit FOX
http://www.foxnews.com/world/2010/07/08/iran-scheduled-stoning-mother-convicted-adultery/?test=latestnews

and all I could say was WOW!! I had just watched a movie about this yesterday and I had not seen the real story in the news. I for one don't mean to disrespect any ones religious beliefs or ideology, but I do believe that we are all created equal and that we all have civil liberties and right that NO ONE has the right to take away from us. That both men and women are equal that one is not better than the other and that GOD is the only one that can judge us. That we are all sinners and that we have No right to declare someone unworthy of life. That women as the agents that brings life into this world should be respected and love, that No man should impose his barbaric and small minded ideals on one particular group. And that as Citizens of this Earth we should all raise our voices and Call for a STOP to all these Human rights Violations that are occurring to women every where.

I am so grateful to be free and to live in this Nation, I am grateful that my Mother, Aunts, Cousins and Nieces and all My female friends do not have to worry about being persecuted and punished like these women.

But I am also sadden to know that there are millions of women around the world that are being mistreated, murdered, raped, and dehumanized.

I am sadden to live in a world that still views and treats women and 10th class citizens and how in some countries even animals have more rigths than they do.
I can only Hope for a Better tomorrow, but this can only be achieved if those of us today take a stand and vow to make a different tomorrow.

I would like for all of us to take a minute out of our own lives to try to help those who can't help themselves, Lets get educated and lets make our voices be heard.

Please visit Amnesty International and get informed and get Involved.
http://www.amnesty.org

Happy Easter Sunday

Just wanted to wish you all a very blessed Easter. May you enjoy the day with all your loved ones.

As I mentioned before I attend church, and boy was I impressed today.. my whole church was packed even the second floor and the balcony.. I had to sit in the far corner , not my usual center row right in the middle, under neath the nice lights and the cool air conditioning vent. Instead I was in the far right on the corner.. but the view was excellent ( we have theater seating) so it was good location.

And I did not mind.. I really loved seeing all the members and the guests. We had a replica of the Tomb of Jesus and we had the opportunity to walk through it while offering prayers for our families. I had my Niece and Nephew with me.. they love the whole experience. They know that Easter is not only about the Easter Bunny.. don't get me wrong I love chocolate, but Easter to me is not about the Fluffy Easter Bunny, it's about Jesus and the Love he has for us.

Also Here in LA.. we had a sudden shake.. there was a 6.9 earthquake in Baja California may every one there be safe .. so that ruffled my Dad's Feathers.. I don't blame him.. Dad suffered a stroke in 2004 and he has his left side asleep.. so things like earthquakes worry him a bit since he is limited in mobility.. but I keep telling him he is safer inside our house than outside.

Lovely Sunday..with JC

I have missed my quiet time with JC.. ( Jesus Christ) my Lord and savior. Life has been taking too much of my time.. and I hate it.. I miss going to church and as weird as that may sound.. I am proud to say That I LOVE GOD and I love GOING TO CHURCH. I was missing my fuel.. i was spiritually running on empty.. when I don't make time for me and Jesus  I feel like Kitty Litter so I decided that even if I am not able to go to church during the week as much as I want to I can still be in communion with him. One way is by writing on my Blog.. see I have so much to be grateful to him that I can spend hours speaking about him... but I don't and I remember that when God manifests his Power in your life you need to tell about it so that others can learn from your experience.

Today I went to the late service which starts at 9:30 am.. yes we have an earlier one at 7am , but I was tired.. so I slept in , But it was not my doing.. I have realized that when ever i do that I receive such a blessing when I go alone to the 9 am service. 

Today was a day just like that I felt like the message was exactly what I needed to hear  and I had me time with the Lord. I was able to tell him how much I need him in my life and ask him to keep me safe to guide my life and to teach me how to be obedient to him, I received from him the certainty that I am not alone and that he will be there with me. That I only need to believe and seek him and he will be there to help me. I have so many plans for my life and today I placed them all in Jesus altar and I asked him to guide me to my future to bless my path and my decisions.. I am planning on getting married, something that my mother does not quite accept, but I trust that God will be with me and that he will protect me and keep me safe. 

I prayed and asked him to allow my mother to be more accepting and I asked for wisdom and strength to make my own decisions and not my mothers, I love her and respect her but she can not choose who I marry.. yes you heard that correct if it was up to my mother she would arrange a marriage for me, actually I think she had, but my brother took care of that for me... by simply saying to the person that I no longer lived at home.

Anyways I am glad I went to church today.. almost missed service because the time changed on me and second  I was tired.. but I was glad I didn't ..

May you all have a Blessed week and may you all know that the Lord in Heaven Loves all of us, all we have to do is humble ourselves and call upon him.

XOXO

HI.. Long Time...No hear !!

As I sit here . And remember how life used to be a couple of years ago, All I have to say Is Thank You God, for saving me and My Family. I have been busy and have not had time to update my Blog.. work, Family Obligations and Life.. have been overworking me. When that happens I know I need to slow down and take some time for me.. Usually that time always involves Jesus and My Church. when I am tired and Drained I take time and go more often to Church and recharge my self. So I have been doing that and Slowly I am feeling a bit better.

I haven't even gone to the gym in 3 weeks... OMG!! I can not allow that to happen I am on a mission and I will conquer..


break is over.. just wanted to tell you whenever you feel like life ,parents, work, school are drowning you.. always look up and call upon Jesus.. he is always right there waiting to give you a hand.

Blessings and XOXOX... Liz